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status: homeless; have gaming laptop, have car, unemployed

This is my blog page; some of my ramblings will be here. Feel free to bookmark whichever page you would visit most. The most important PC tech ramblings will appear on my PC page, but there may be a more in depth story here in my blog.


August 11, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 13 (week 632) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 13 is up.

This fail week there is disappointing news that the stimulus is at an impasse, and as such I am back to not knowing when it will come. With that sad news it feels I will never get a chance to change anything in my life, and these terrible days will continue as they are, unending.

August 4, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 13 (week 631) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 13 is up.

This fail week there is an extreme amount of tooth pain, making me constantly aware of the loss. The week is extra difficult emotionally, but with the approaching deadline for finalizing the second stimulus I try to remain hopeful more will come.

August 1, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 342: Heeding the Call of Cthulhu - Link
In this podcast I talk about my very limited time so far in Call of Cthulhu. This is a game which is a couple of years old, but is a rare one, as it's based in a pen and paper role playing game, in a cosmic horror setting; a genre that sees few and far between games. The story is very interesting, but the execution is not without its flaws. Mostly these are forgivable, however, because it's created by an independent studio.
July 28, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 13 (week 630) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 13 is up.

This fail week there is extreme depression, as things feel like they will never change. But there is good news that more stimulus money is on the way, theoretically securing a laptop upgrade in the future.

July 21, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 13 (week 629) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 13 is up.

This fail week things happen that remind me I am an outsider, and I feel like I can control nothing, and I am unsafe and will suffer no matter what I do.

July 14, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 13 (week 628) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 13 is up.

This fail week I feel very sad and like I will never get a chance for change. More news lately seems to indicate there may be resistance to things reopening during August, and I may be stuck in exile through the rest of the year.

July 14, '20 - Tuesday - System recommendation updates - systems link
At long last I work my way through my depression and limitations with connection and laptop time and the PC page has gotten some updates, and the System Recommendation page has been updated.
July 11, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 341: Steam wishlist top 10 - Link
In this podcast I talk about what my current list of top 10 games are on my Steam wishlist. I also give very brief thoughts on the new game play modes in Legends of Runeterra; the Gauntlet and the Lab.
July 7, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 13 (week 627) - Link
The first week of Epic Fail year 13 is up.

This fail week is a new fail year. I continue to hope enough stimulus comes to throw me a lifeline to gather enough to pay some bills and do a very overdue laptop upgrade. There is a surprise sanctuary in the ex-garage for the weekend.

June 30, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 626) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week classes end, and I feel more uncertain of my future for the next fail year than ever before.

June 23, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 625) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I feel extra hopeless, exhausted, and accept my life seems like it will not be able to change for the better because of the virus closures and limitations.

June 20, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 340: Going back to Skyrim - Link
In this podcast I talk about the new antiquities systems for the newest Elder Scrolls Online expansion, as well as a few brief thoughts for my brief time with the questing content in the new areas.
June 16, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 624) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week there is the smallest bit of possibly good news in that the library is starting 'curb side service', possibly indicating an eventual reopen date sooner than August.

June 9, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 623) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I get a brief break inside. All the limitations of everything takes a greater toll on my physically, and emotionally.

June 2, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 622) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week it seems more and more likely I won't be able to be back in the library and close to homeless normal until August.

May 30, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 339: Commanding Missiles and Figurines - Link
In this podcast I talk about a couple of free to play mobile games. The first is an Atari classic game re-imagined; Missile Command: Recharged. And the second is a very spooky nightmare running type game; Rest in Pieces. At the end I have what will likely turn out to be a sad life update.
May 26, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 621) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week laptop options continue to be pushed in dates. Sadly, I think I reach a kind of peaceful and hopeless acceptance that even if the stay at home order is lifted at the end of the month, I feel like nothing will change for me.

May 19, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 620) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I feel like parts of me are shutting down due to disuse and limitations. I get a brief visit to stay sheltered.

May 12, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 619) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I see my hands not trembling for the first time. California enters 'phase 2' of reopening, but that has no impact on my area. There is a new high end laptop I'd love to get, but it's sadly only a wish as it's out of my price range.

May 9, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 338: Survival mode and a Chimera Squad - Link
In this podcast I talk a surprising amount about Remnant: From the Ashes' survival mode dlc expansion. It adds a fun new timed mode where you are racing against the clock and trying to survive as long as you can. It also adds cool new cosmetics, as well as new items.

I also talk a bit about XCOM: Chimera Squad. It feels very different from previous XCOM games, but retains a lot of the core feel of the world, as well as the in-combat strategy.

May 5, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 618) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I got my stimulus money, opening up the possibility for getting my new laptop. But with everything closed due to the virus, it looks like the model I want is delayed until June 11th, meaning I likely won't be able to upgrade until things start opening up and going back to normal.

April 28, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 617) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I got a big donation, which helps with all the things. I got a late bunny day present, which was super nice. And just as my nerves begin to calm down nearing the end of the stay at home date, word is announced it may be extended as long as 28 more days.

April 21, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 616) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week school starts. I feel a bit more normal, but not as much as I'd hoped. Stay at home moves to the control of the states, but we see no change in the timetable.

April 18, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 337: Continued exile - Link
In this podcast I give an update of my sad continued exile.
April 14, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 615) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week is only half way through the quarantine time and these bad times seem like they will never end. Yet I'm beginning to reach an odd balance. There are still periods of P.T.S.D. and anxiety, but they are becoming less frequent.

April 7, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 614) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week things seem like they will never get better, as the stay at home order is extended by 30 days. I notice rapid weight loss, and my health and emotional state become extremely fragile.

March 31, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 613) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week things go from bad to worse during this crazy quarantine time.

March 28, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 336: No shelter in place - Link
In this podcast I ramble about what I can't play because of the shelter in place and social distancing rules preventing any play at all.
March 24, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 612) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I lose what was basically my last real option to stay connected and have a normal homeless life. Now I am left with only panic and fear outside of a few brief moments a day. Crowds continue and I can hide in parking lots easily, but for how long.

March 17, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 611) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week quarantine and panic begin to set in. Places announce closures, I wonder if I will have anywhere safe, and with a 'shelter in place' rule I wonder how I will continue to hang on.

March 10, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 610) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I feel pretty sick. The cold is winning. I continue to worry if help will come in time to cover the recent bills.

March 7, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 335: rabb1t things - Link
In this podcast I ramble about what I've been playing lately, what I will be playing, and some things you might want to watch out for in the coming weeks.
March 3, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 609) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I find a way to alter the timing of the bills for school and the car insurance membership, but I will still need help to make it through. I continue to fight off a cold that seems to be lingering.

February 25, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 608) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I get a bill much sooner than expected. Without help I will be forced to sacrifice the money that was saved for next quarter of school. I spiral into depression and stress.

February 18, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 607) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I help a bunch of people print projects, and wheel a wounded girl to the health center. I watched a stream for a game I'd love that my system almost certainly couldn't handle. And a game launches that my system can handle that I'd probably like very much, but have no money for.

February 11, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 606) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I feel both a bit better, and a bit worse, emotionally.

February 8, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 334: A new legend (of Runeterra) - Link
In this podcast I ramble about a new free to play collectible card game called Legends of Runeterra. It does quite a bit different from other CCGs and it's a great mix of ease of play and strategy.
February 4, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 605) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I worry my laptop may be dying due to showing more symptoms. I finish important school things and have a touch of a break.

January 28, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 604) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I discover my mouse may be dying, but find a workaround. I get sent a super cute shirt.

January 21, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 603) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week things grow colder, and I struggle to feel motivated to do homework.

January 18, '20 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 333: I don't get the Phoenix Point - Link
In this podcast I ramble a little bit about a game I played briefly that I had been looking forward to for years; Phoenix Point. It trades the streamlined nature of play of the recent Firaxis XCOM games for a level of complexity which some, who are not me, may enjoy.
January 14, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 602) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I start the new quarter. It feels like much more time is passing than has.

January 7, '20 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 601) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I survive the New Year. And while previous regular donators become more scarce, the gray ghost promises to try to send a recurring payment that will help a bit.

December 31, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 600) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I survive Xmas. Gift money comes, and I put some away for fun, and some away for bills.

December 28, '19 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 332: Rage, and a mouse - Link
In this podcast I ramble a little bit about my brief experience with Rage 2, limited partly due to the game pass requiring I play it while online, and also limited by crashing due to my super old laptop hardware. I also give a brief glimpse into a super cute game where you are a mouse; Ghost of a Tale.
December 24, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 599) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I paid a couple bills, and have a little for later. Things always seem sad this time of year, so I try to continue to hang on.

December 17, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 598) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I got help and can pile up the money. I will have to take a bit of time to see what I have in total and what can be done with it, but for the moment I am spared, and can relax at least a little for hopefully a few months.

December 10, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 597) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I got help and should be safe from the overdue car insurance payments. I'll know for sure at the end of the month when things have completed and cycled into my account. Until then I worry, but I suppose until everything is better I always will.

December 7, '19 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings 331: Hellblade and rambling - Link
In this podcast I ramble a little bit about Hellblade: Senua's Sacrifice. It's an amazing game, but due to visual and audio experimental effects, as well as dealing with subject matter of mental illness, I don't know that I'd recommend it for everyone. And in the close I have a bit of a sad life update.
December 3, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 596) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I got help from the Gray Ghost and paid the yearly web space bill. I signed up for classes and will pay for them soon, but with no Turkey day money from dad yet, and nothing left after I do pay it, things seem at extreme risk.

November 26, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 595) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I feel very worried about bills, and I continue to feel increasingly emotionally unstable.

November 19, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 594) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I feel extra lonely and still extremely tired. There was still no help for the bills, but at the end of the week I'll have help from dad or not, and I may need to make some very tough decisions if help doesn't come.

November 16, '19 - Saturday - rabb1t's ramblings podcast 330: Outer Worlds, other dragons - Link
In this podcast I ramble about the Outer Worlds, which I played on PC through the Xbox Game Pass for only $1. It's a really great RPG (sci-fi) shooter. There is tons of dialogue, and all NPCs are voiced. The worlds are really great, as is the music. But as is typical for this kind of game I found myself getting more disinterested the more I played, as leveling curved out and it became very easy, in addition to the quests feeling very unimportant.

In the second section I talk about Elder Scrolls Online's Dragonhold DLC, which expands the story which was started with the base Elsweyr content.

And in the final section I talk about why I am unlikely to play Destiny 2 again.

November 12, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 593) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I feel extra lonely. And there still has been no help or donations to pay car insurance, so I grow increasingly worried I'll have to take money out of savings (for important bills) to cover that.

November 5, '19 - Tuesday - Epic Fail book 12 (week 592) - Link
The next week of Epic Fail year 12 is up.

This fail week I feel extra depressed and worried. The car insurance for November is now officially past due, and unless I pull money reserved for next quarter at school or the web space bill I'll have no way to pay for it.


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